Lost in Mind

I’m so deeply in tombed In my mind Looking for something I don’t know Sometimes I keep My head underwater The liquid caressing my face Life makes no sense As I walk random streets The sunshine a feature On my meaningless defeats I sit in the cafe Think of the miles Of concrete around me Millions of souls Think of society Those of the past The unknowable future Humans survive I think of my life How it affects all others I think of my home A point of space I’m here unimaginably But I want rejection Society is a cast chance And I don’t resign to fate But I can’t leave a world I know and love Or this luxury so crude My salvation keeps me so My mind is energized With beliefs and ideals But with age that fire Loses size and zeal I don’t understand why In my chariot of freedom Which shackles me That fire wanted not to go Is it the corruptible Pursuit of our society The desire for money And for plenty Or is it control The weight of supreme Control of minds And natural wants I can help But I can’t Being everything And nothing Squeamish discomfort Digs into me As I roll on the floor Gripping my hair for support The wind gently whips me As I skate down hill No thought of consequence No thought of fear Think for all And forget your worth I wonder if my life Is a worthy trade for the rest What should I do How should I be The sun sinking slowly on the horizon How can I make my Escape from myself I don’t even understand My ability of sight As this silent torrent Dances on I muster My voice to yell I recognize hell A self judgement day As I decide some action No matter what being chained To the Time that I live.